“For this people’s heart has become calloused; they hardly hear with their ears, and they have closed their eyes. Otherwise they might see with their eyes, hear with their ears, understand with their hearts and turn, and I would heal them.”—matthew 13:15
i’m an introvert. i can’t even write very personal things on my own blog, or post vintage/cool instagram pictures of myself, what is that called, gyopw or something? first, since i don’t have an internet phone still, and second because i feel weird about it (even though no one reads this anyway). interviewing for my writing has helped bring me out a little bit, but it is easy to use your fake “professional” voice (i like to call it my sonic voice) with strangers, especially when you will most likely never see them again. it takes me some time to open up usually.
so that is why i want to say this- i have a problem of falling for extroverts.
not falling in love, but thinking that extroverts feel the same way i do about opening up. so when they tell me many personal things, and we have great conversations about important or meaningful topics, i start to think that we are on another “friend level”, forgetting that that is how they probably speak with everyone. this leads me to believing that we are going to hang out all the time, and that we are great friends—usually not the case since they don’t see me as someone they bonded with, just as someone they hung out with a few times.
anyway, that is all i want to say about this right now, but it is just a reminder to me that when i am with them to take it all with a grain of salt. i don’t even know if that saying fits here, but whatever.